I was bored the other day, so as always I turn to my hobby: Photoshop.
I don't know what exactly was I thinking, but here is what I got:


Neat, huh? I love it! What do you think? [Alright, no copyright infringement intended. Don't sue me, please] The concept of "When I fall in love ...with both" was gotten from Fann Wong's film.

Talks about siblings rivalry...

Have you ever heard Ashley Simpson's 'Shadow'? Nope, not the one she lip-synced in Saturday Night Live. I'm talking about the one which talking about "...living in the shadow of the dreams and accomplishments of Ashley's famous older sister". Even though I'm not a fan of Ashley Simpson (who is?), I'm kinda bugged by this song.

It happens all the time, don't you think so? When our sibling is better and/or better at something, better in any means, than us, our parents will definitely start comparing us, obviously or not. It's intimidating. For me, at least. I started to imagine that my brother is going to be as rich as Steve Jobs or Bill Gates. Then people will start to interview him, and start questioning about his sibling(s). Then they found out that one of this rich guy's siblings is only a minor movie editor in small production house. Poor and ugly, and pathetic. So different from his/her brother.

I wonder how many other people feel the same as I do?
And I wonder why the f*** does it matter?

I mean, so what if our brother/sister is better than us? Shouldn't our parents love us as we are? Shouldn't people just accept the fact that different individual has different characteristic? Why can't they accept the fact that we are -ok, I am- not as beautiful/talented/smart/hard-working as my brother/sister is?
And so what if MY passion is movie, and unlike my brother who wants to be "..a filthy rich businessman-slash-programmer"? So what if I become a "...filthy poor movie-editor"? Screw it, I love making movie, that is passion and I'm going to chase it -and achieve it.

Requiem for A Dream

- Marion.
- Harry? Oh, Harry.
- Oh, Marion, I've been thinking about you. You're OK?
- When you coming back?
- Soon. You're holding out right?
- When?
- Soon. Everything's going to be alright.
- Will you come today?
- Yeah, soon. Just wait for me. I'll be back soon. You'll wait, right?
- ...
- Marion.
- Yeah.
- Just wait.
- I will, Harry.
- I'm coming, Marion. I am. And I'm sorry. I'm real sorry.
- I know, Harry. I know.


His sobs turns into his pain. His pain turns into his misery.

The truth about your job....

If...
1. You work very late ...
... Just like prostitutes .

2. They pay you to make the client happy...
... Just like a prostitute.

3. The client pays a lot of money, but your employer keeps almost every cent ...
... Just like a prostitute .

4. You are rewarded for fulfilling the client's dreams...
... Just like a prostitute.

5. Your friendships fall apart and you end up hanging out with people in the same profession as you...
... Just like a prostitute .

6. When you have to meet the client you always have to be perfectly groomed...
... Just like a prostitute .

7. But when you go back home it seems like you are coming back from hell...
... Just like a prostitute .

8. The client always wants to pay less but expects incredible things from you...
... Just like a prostitute .

9. When people ask you about your job, you have difficulties to explain it...
... Just like a prostitute .

10. Everyday when you wake up, you say: "I'm not going to spend the rest of my life doing this."
... Just like a prostitute .

A what..?

Few weeks ago, I highlighted the lower half of my hair red, I have natural dark hair. So guess whose hair my hair looks like now. I swear I'm not trying to follow his hairstyle, I was not his fan, never even noticed him, either, before [it's about changed, though].

And that is not all.

I'm always attracted to both men and women, but calling me bi is just NOT quite right. 'Cos I'm not that attracted that I want to have a relationship with either of them.
My friends always teased me 'cos I never had -and still have not- a "romance relationship". When we studied viruses in school, I used to joke with my friends that's because I am asexual.

Then, nowadays, because watching too much of Alexander: Revisited by Oliver Stone, I impressed by Hephaistion character. So, I googled 'Jared Leto' as the actor who played Hephaistion [also partly because 30 Seconds to Mars]. One thing led to another, I end up google about his mysterious love relationship. As everyone is questioning: who is Hep.. I mean, Jared's girlfriend? Is he gay? I came across his quote that "I'm like Morrissey...I thought he was asexual?" Jared Leto is implying he is asexual.

I just can't believe it.

Saying it shocked me would be an understatement. So THERE is 'asexual', after all?? I went straight to wikipedia... and people, I present you a new term in sexology: asexual.

Jared Leto is now officially my idol. Anyway, he is so cute (even) with that eyeliner and those black nails.

People around Alexander the Great

Some of you maybe never heard of Alexander the Great (what a probability!), some of you maybe ever heard of that name, and some of you maybe his fan. Well, that's who I am: a fan of Alexander the Great.
But today, I'm not going to talk about him. Instead, I will only make list of people who lived around Alexander the Great. I hope it'll be useful, for some of you, somehow. So here it is, categorized based on closer relationship and listed based on alphabets.

Family
Alexander Aegus : Alexander first-born son with Roxane, the actual true heir of Macedonia. But was murder along with his mother when he was 13.
Alexander of Epirus (or Alexander Molossus) : Olympias' brother, Alexander's uncle plus brother-in-law as he married Alexander's sister, Cleopatra.
Attalus : Macedonia important courtier.
Cleopatra Eurydice : Philip's fifth wife, niece of Attalus.
Cleopatra of Macedon : Alexander's full-sister (daughter of Philip and Olympias), married to Alexander of Epirus.
Cynane : Alexander half-sister, daughter of Philip and Audata.
Olympias : Real name was Myrtale of Epirote, a Princess of Epirus. Mother of Alexander the Great. She changed her name to Olympias (or Olympia) when she became Philip's fourth wife.
Philip II : King of Macedonia in 382-336 BC, father of Alexander the Great.
Philip III : Alexander half-brother, son of Philip and Philinna of Larissa. Named Arrhidaeus at birth. He was the crown prince of Macedonia Empire before Olympias poisoned him, thus he became retarded.
Roxane (or Roxana) of Sogdia : Alexander's first wife i.e. his queen and the mother of Alexander Argus.
Thessalonike (or Thessalonica of Macedon) : Alexander half-sister, daughter of Philip and Nikasipolis. Wife of Cassander.

Close friends
Bucephalus : means "ox-head" in Latin. It was a horse Alexander tamed when Alexander was only 10 years old. Bucephalus accompanied Alexander for more than two decades, from the time Alexander tamed him until he died in 325 BC. Rumors had it that he let noone ride him except Alexander.
Hephaistion : aka Hephaestion Amyntoros. Held the position of second-in-command of Alexander's forces. No doubt that he was Alexander's life-long best friend, rumored to be "Alexander's lover" (whatever that means!) by certain people. The only person Alexander trusted the most.

Generals (or something, I don't really know what they called)
Antipater : General in Philip's reign, then became regent when Alexander went on his conguest in Asia.
Cassander : Eldest son of Antipater, husband of Thessalonike. King of Macedon in 350-297 BC.
Cleitus : a.k.a Black Cleitus, perhaps because of his black hair (which was uncommon in Greek at that time). Served Philip II before he served Alexander.
Crateros (or Craterus): Alexander's General of the Phalanx. Crateros was a probable heir chosen by Alexander himself.
Nearchus : One of Alexander's boyhood friends, fellow 'classmate' when Alexander was taught by Aristotle.
Parmenion : Father of Philotas; he was also a general in Philip's reign.
Perdiccas : Soon after Alexander's death, he took over the position as guardian and regent of all Alexander's empire. We can say he also became sort of protector to Roxana and Alexander Aegus.
Philotas : Oldest son of Parmenion; most experienced and talented general of Alexander's.
Ptolemy (or Ptolemy I Soter) : Rumored to be Alexander's half-brother. Took over Alexadria (Egypt) after Alexander's death, he was the founder of Ptolemy Dynasty in Egypt, forefather of Cleopatra VII.

House of Persia
Cyrus the Great : Founder of Persian Empire, great-grandfather of Darius III. It is widely known that Alexander admired him and visited his grave when Alexander invaded Persia.
Darius III : Alexander's enemy, and engaged in three major wars with Alexander.
Sisygambis : Mother of Darisu III, grandmother of Statira and Drypteis. She was the one who famous from mistaking Hephaistion for Alexander.
Statira (or Stateira II): Alexander's second wife.
Drypteis : Sister of Statira, also married to Hephaition.
Vizier Bagoas : He was the one who made Darius III king. Alexander accused him as the one who behind Philip's death.

Others
Aristander : A clairvoyant who predicted Alexander's birth. He was still in duty when Alexander reign and was also Alexander's favorite seer.
Aristotle : Yes, I'm talking about the famous Aristotle. He was the teacher of Alexander when Alexander was 12-16.
Bagoas : A eunuch in Persia, said to be Alexander's lover. Not to be confused with Vizier Bagoas.
Diogenes : A philosopher who lived like a beggar but won Alexander's respect.
Lanice (or Lanike) : Black Cleitus' older sister, nursed Alexander when he was a toddler.
Leonidas : A relative of Olympias. Also Alexander's military trainer, was not very liked by Alexander, and didn't really like Alexander either.

Historians who wrote about Alexander
Arrian (86-146 AD)
Callisthenes (360-328 BC): It's a long lineage, but to put it simple, he was Aristotle's great nephew. He met Alexander when Alexander was tutored by Aristotle (which make him Alexander's boyhood friend, also). He was later appointed to attend Alexander the Great's Asiatic expedition as a professional historian.
Curtius (41-5 4 AD)
Diodorus (90–27 BC)
Justin (uncertain, around year 390 AD)
Onesicritus (360-290 BC) : Accompanied Alexander himself on Alexander's campaigns in Asia, wrote a history of Alexander.
Plutarch 46-120 AD)

The thought is just swept through me when I was watching Mary Shelley's Frankenstein. Don't take this seriously, this just what I think.

Human is made up of: body + soul + spirit [soul = energy]

Soul connects body and spirit. When human dies, some of the energy left on the body and will be released as the body decays. That is why we feel unease at the cemetery, there are energies being released, they’re affecting OUR energy. Energy is not limited by space, but does it limited by time?

Some/a part of the soul (energy) follow the spirit, that’s why we (humans) can feel the presence of spirits – because of the energy they still radiate. And, that’s also why, when they want it, spirits can still move solid/physical objects.

So the conclusion is, if we don’t have:

· Body: We are ghosts only.

· Spirit: We are zombie (?) Immoral, have no conscience.

· Soul: No feeling (Like the movie Equilibrium??)

"There is always a line between (that separates) human and God. When humans try to cross the line… well, they can’t. God make sure of that."

Be different, get bitten!