I didn't see anything on the first video. Did you?
00:17 That's pretty scary. But it could be another family member in that room.
00:28 It looked fake.
00:55 Holy sh*t! Someone is sitting on the couch! But, what's with the leap image?
00:57 Nooo, there's no one there! It could be fake, though. Like, "glued" video.
01:10 Is there something crawling out there??
01:18 Looks like the same person in 00:57.
01:30 Creepy, creepy face. Reminds me of Phantom of the Opera.
01:42 Umm.. what's that again?
02:08 Could be a reflective light on camera?
02:12 Fake.
02:23 It happens often. But this one could be fake, too.
02:36 I'm really amazed that they're able to notice such shadows....
02:42 Where are they and what are they doing, anyway??
02:52 Ahem....
03:06 What's wrong with it, anyway? Isn't that the cameraman??
03:13 That scare the hell out of me! *faint*

Jared Leto.

That name has just become the global warming in my world --it melts me away!

It’s so amazing when I think about how it’s started. I was crazy about Alexander the Great. Then I bought the DVD of Oliver Stone version of Alexander. Then there was Hephaistion. And my brother kept saying, “Hey, isn’t that Jared Leto.” I goes, “Who?” “Jared Leto, the one who played in Nicholas Cage’s Lord of War.” I was just, “Oh..”
But every time I watch the movie, he would say the same thing: “Jared Leto, right?”

So I became curious, why does my brother remember him so much? I asked him, and he said, “Because he’s handsome.” That time I said nothing but thought, he’s not bad --I was so gonna regret ever think that way. Cos now, I am crazy about Jared Leto. Oh, my sweet violent urge…

*cough* Back to topic. I googled about this lovely little thing, and found out that he has a band! I became even more curious. Okay, talented handsome actor who has a band, let’s hear how they sound. Guess what, my heart has been stolen ever since I listened to them in YouTube. I don’t quite remember which song did I hear, was it Buddha for Mary or The Story, but I was hooked.

30 Seconds to Mars is not just another band that you’ll soon forget after the season is over.

I always wrote these random “poems” full of analogy, metaphor, and --well, randomness. Many people who had read my so-called poems would think that they’re weird and too “heavy to think about.” I take that as a compliment.

In 30 Seconds to Mars, I found the sense of belonging, for their songs are of the same kind to my kind of poems, and rantings. And not only with their songs, but also with Echelon.
And Jared --oh, Jared, the more I read about him, the more I hear about him, the deeper I fall.

Of course he has his negative traits (I still haven’t gotten over the Hilton tragedy yet!!), but unexplainably, I refuse to see them. And so he becomes my sweet violent obsession.
God knows about my crazy fanfics [no, it’s not sexual stories!]. Anyone who ever read them will call a shrink or rehab right away, to register me.

Feast of Coke Fest

From My Coke Fest
30 Seconds To Mars are still riding the wave of their million-selling second album 'A Beautiful Lie'. 'From Yesterday', the third hit single off the album, reached No.1, after 22 weeks on the Modern Rock charts, following their previous single 'The Kill', with its record-setting 52 weeks on the Billboard charts, making it the longest-running hit in the chart’s history. The band (Jared Leto on guitars and vocals, Shannon Leto on drums, Tomo Milicevic on guitars, and Tim Kelleher on bass) were awarded Kerrang! Magazine’s "2007 Single of the Year", won two Australian MTV Awards, an MTV Europe Music Award, and an MTV2 Award.

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19 January was the date. I was leisurely search ‘Jared Leto’ in Google News. And guessed what I’ve found? A news that would soon shattered my world and the respect I have for Jared. Gosh, I can’t even bring myself to write about it. I remember when I first adore Jared, I thought Paris and Jared are two different worlds, they would be the last couple to be together in Hollywood. Jared is (or was, in this case) way too elegant/smart/intelligent/whatever to be together or even touch that... thing. Really, I can still “forgive” him when he’s rumored to made out with Lindsay (hey, at least Lindsay is talented and beautiful), I can even still “forgive” him about the news on Tila. But this… just disgusting.

Yesterday I googled about the Paris-Jared news again, looking for some clarity of the news. I found the article that said Paris was doing this lap dance and Jared was “..totally not interested.” I remember thinking (and keep repeating it in my mind), “I’m so proud of him!” I thought from all of the men who “would still do Paris, even though she’s a bitch”, I finally come across one (at least one in my hoping!) that won’t. So you can imagine how disappointed (and need I remind you again: shattered) I am to find today’s news – and picture. It just gross.

If Jared is really dating or even just going out with Paris, I totally will stop being a believer. I’ll still enjoy their songs and their arts, of course, but not the same. You can see that Jared has lost respects from so many people – mostly fans-to-be. I wonder if he even cares. Celebrity… Wait, since when did Jared turn from an artist to a celebrity. Was it since Paris laid her eyes on him or since he laid his hand on her?

Again, I watched Alexander the Great. And again, I amazed by him. It seems that no matter what my brother said, I still love this character. There are so many things I learned from him, and there are still a lot of things he's teaching me.
Friendship, loyalty, and family are what I learned from him today (if not again).

Friendship... it's always amazed me how Alexander always knew where to put his trust, but didn't lost in them. Did not confused between his trust and facts, I mean.
And, how lucky he was to have found Hephaistion, and few others whom he can trust. As for me, I thought I had found my Hephaistion - and a few whom I can trust, but now I can see that I am wrong, so wrong. Today is a different era, I guess. There are no longer people who can truly care about us. These days people only care about themselves, the prosperity of their lives. That, including family.

Loyalty... With a world where money has the utmost importance, where else can we find loyalty? But no matter, Alexander taught me, that one of the most important virtues in this life is loyalty. So in this world so lack of love and loyalty, all the more I have to contribute to it.

Family... I realize now, you can spend forever to run away from your parents... but you'll never run far enough. In fact, you might just end up exactly like them. Olympias loved Alexander, I know that. Perhaps Alexander himself knew that. But why did he refuse to go back to Macedonia and continue further east, instead? He got scared, I guess. Her so-called love captured his life, suffocate him. He just wanted to go away from it. Love, they say, but is it love when they order us around, just to get what's best for THEM? Love,is it, when they try to eliminate us the second we're no longer provide profits?

I was bored the other day, so as always I turn to my hobby: Photoshop.
I don't know what exactly was I thinking, but here is what I got:


Neat, huh? I love it! What do you think? [Alright, no copyright infringement intended. Don't sue me, please] The concept of "When I fall in love ...with both" was gotten from Fann Wong's film.

Talks about siblings rivalry...

Have you ever heard Ashley Simpson's 'Shadow'? Nope, not the one she lip-synced in Saturday Night Live. I'm talking about the one which talking about "...living in the shadow of the dreams and accomplishments of Ashley's famous older sister". Even though I'm not a fan of Ashley Simpson (who is?), I'm kinda bugged by this song.

It happens all the time, don't you think so? When our sibling is better and/or better at something, better in any means, than us, our parents will definitely start comparing us, obviously or not. It's intimidating. For me, at least. I started to imagine that my brother is going to be as rich as Steve Jobs or Bill Gates. Then people will start to interview him, and start questioning about his sibling(s). Then they found out that one of this rich guy's siblings is only a minor movie editor in small production house. Poor and ugly, and pathetic. So different from his/her brother.

I wonder how many other people feel the same as I do?
And I wonder why the f*** does it matter?

I mean, so what if our brother/sister is better than us? Shouldn't our parents love us as we are? Shouldn't people just accept the fact that different individual has different characteristic? Why can't they accept the fact that we are -ok, I am- not as beautiful/talented/smart/hard-working as my brother/sister is?
And so what if MY passion is movie, and unlike my brother who wants to be "..a filthy rich businessman-slash-programmer"? So what if I become a "...filthy poor movie-editor"? Screw it, I love making movie, that is passion and I'm going to chase it -and achieve it.